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Brining back this oldie I took

Today Was An Interesting Day

I don’t know where to begin so I’ll just start from the beginning and talk about how this day was.

It first started off with the desire to hike with my gf. We both made it to the top and was able to take great pics and it was just fun in general hiking up the path that I knew decently well. The interesting part begins during the path down.

We decided to take a different path down and as we were going down we tried to avoid going in the woodsy area because we both had shorts on and the thorns were killing us along with the darkness beginning to set in. We decided to follow the swerving road that was connected to West Rock Mountain and it looked extremely unfamiliar. We kept walking further and further and everything seemed to look different. 

I was beginning to get nervous just because I didn’t feel safe where I was at. We stopped and we decided to put SCSU into the gps to see where we are geographically. Apparently we were 1.2 miles away from campus and I didn’t think it was that far. Dude I was so fucking wrong.

We followed the gps and then we went through a neighborhood that reminded me of the Southend apartments in Stamford. Very small, fenced, close, back to back, and very active and very poor looking. There were a bunch of little kids playing and they looked like they were in middle school. I decided to continue walking with Angelina as we minded our own business. We saw them playing football with each other; I’m assuming they were all friends, family, or neighbors from the neighborhood. 

One kid decided to walk towards us and say “hey I like your purple hair” to Angelina when in reality it was a bandana. We just kept walking and we then heard “Say thank you nigga.” I already knew what was gonna happen from here because all they are gonna do is instigate and antagonize us for no apparent reasons because we clearly looked like we don’t belong in the hood. The comments progressively became ruder and ruder as we walked. I shall list the few comments that we heard

  • Nigga say thank you
  • Chinese ass nigga
  • Cracker (to Angelina)
  • Skinny ass 
  • You look like you got sun burn you dark ass nigga

I ignored all of this because it doesn’t even anger me. I just feel so damn bad for these kid. I feel so bad for them just because they didn’t choose this kind of life. They were born into a community that is so underdeveloped and they have no control over it. 

These kids are born into poverty with role models that may be parents that sell drugs to struggle and pay for cell phone bills or buy drugs with the money they don’t already have. Their role models also have used the N word constantly as we can see. Their role models or whoever raised them as you can see are antagonizers also. I don’t see what they get out of it. They most likely have never seen an asian person and a white person walking through the neighborhood before which is why we may look like gems to them and that is why they started approaching us. 

I feel bad mainly because they could have a better life than the life they currently lead and will lead. Assuming is never safe but I don’t want to jump to conclusions that these kids will sell drugs, end up in jail, commit crimes, or even die. 

These kids have such potential to be successful but have gotten their opportunities ruined because they think they’re suppose to follow a certain role that a person in their life has set for them. I can’t do anything for them but to feel sorrow but it makes me think a lot. I am going to be a social worker one of these days and that involves me working with a various amount of people including children in underdeveloped cities. I want to help them but are they willing to accept my help if ignorance is all they have in mind. 

Other than that, it was a great day to begin with but a horrible way to end on. I also felt really creeped out with the people that drove by slowly too. Clearly we look like we don’t belong in the neighborhood which is probably why they looked at us like that. I never felt so unsafe before in such a city because I’m so use to walking around in Stamford on High Ridge with my friends. It isn’t like that up here in New Haven. This is reality. 

I would like to also thank my parents for also giving me the opportunity to better ourselves by wanting me to do well in school. I feel like I never appreciate them at all whenever they say or remind me to do well. Not many families are like this and I truly feel ungrateful, especially today. I want to thank them for allowing me to grow up where I grew up, experience what I experienced, having an education, being loved, caring for me, and for accepting me. I’m sorry if I don’t tell you guys that I love you enough, because I wouldn’t know how you guys would truly feel if something horrific were to happen to me today. 

Cuz I’m so photogenic
I tried taking a “selfie”. Derpaderp

Shiny Pokemon Trade

These are the available shinies that I own that are for trade. Feel free to throw me offers and I’ll see what I like. Not looking for anything in specific but message me if interested. I will only do shiny for shiny.

*Preferably Kalos Bread*

Shiny Legends

  • Latios
  • Latias
  • Dakrai
  • Rayquaza
  • Mew
  • Giratina
  • Kyurem
  • Shaymin

Regular Shiny Pokemon

  • Infernape
  • Metagross
  • Togekiss
  • Murkrow
  • Luvdisc
  • Whimsicott
  • Charizard
  • Nincada
  • Greninja
  • Vapereon
  • Hondege
  • Flareon
  • Eevee
  • Jolteon
  • Gyrados
  • Vanillite
  • Spiritomb
  • Duskull
  • Inkay
  • Heracross
  • Espurr (Male)
  • Ditto
cuz finals are over selfie 
Cuz I haven’t posted a selfie in a while

I would like to take the opportunity to appreciate tumblr for its amazing works, without tumblr i wouldn’t be where I am now. I wouldn’t be celebrating my one year anniversary with my gf <3, the reason why tumblr was so important was that we miraculously met through tumblr and happened to live only miles away. Happy one year anniversary doyousaywhatyouwant I love you with all my heart 3/24/13

Cuz I haven&#8217;t posted a pic of myself in a while

I’m fucking fed up with this fucking school

50,000 Post!

My fellow people of tumblr, you’re most likely wondering where I have been lately for I haven’t been blogging at all. I’d like to apologize and say that I’ve been busy with school, work, and everything that life is offering (the bad and the good). Anyways I would love to dedicate this 50,000 post to a special someone and that would be my lovely girlfriend Angelina. I would like to talk about what a great day Martin Luther King was too. She came up to visit me at school even though there was a chance that she couldn’t have because of her bitchy mom AKA Bitchel. Anyways the day started off with a generous ride from my friend Andrew and he drove me to go pick her up. As we got back to school we both jumped right into bed and it felt like it was summer again. The days where I would lay in bed for hours with her and do nothing and just talking about everything. We would poke at each other and kiss each other for hours till our lip stung. As the day went on it only got better and when she left, things didn’t feel right. I had a strong craving for her and after I got a taste, I want more. Maybe one day I will get to spend more time with you and be able to do everything we want with each other. 

Also on this very day, I would like to tell her Happy 10 months and happy almost 1 year from when we first started talking to each other. No words can describe how I feel about this girl, and I know we get into fights and bickers from time to time, and in the end we just let our hearts do the solving. image

There are so many times I an talk about but I thought this picture had great significance in it. I remember we both went to go see All Time Low, Pierce the Veil, and ADTR together and it was the first concert we spent with each other ever. My god was it an experience. We both felt so alive together and the energy that was surrounding us. What I really enjoyed most during that concert was when we were able to slow down and listen to the soft songs by ADTR like “Have faith in me” and “If it means a lot to you.” I held her so close to me singing each and every word to her as if they were my own song. The lyrics described how I felt 100% and I made sure she knew by holding her and singing it to her with my awful voice. She turned around and look at me and told me “you’re crazy” and I said “I love you.” And from there she kissed me hard back and we will forever cherish that night. I love her so much and I hope she knows that. Were both still so young and exploring the world, and personally.. that sounds kind of scary with a world this big. But honestly, with her by my side… what’s to fear?

I don’t know when you will see this but hopefully you will see it as soon as possible. If you are awake then SURPRISE, if you are asleep then have an amazing night, and if you are just waking up to this surprise and good morning darling ^_^

I’m so sick and fucking tired of my parents constantly telling me each and everyday of my life to do well in school, like no fucking shit I’ll try to do well how the fuck am I gonna forget if Every time we talk you mention it. Holy shit and you wonder why I get pissed all the time and never wanna talk to you guys. I’m not a fucking child anymore Jesus Christ I’m a fucking adult and I know what I’m fucking doing. I don’t need all this pressure you out on me along with the pressure I put on myself. Holy shit.

What I wore today to endure the cold. Meh still cold
How I feel about 2014 already&#8230;.