Today Was An Interesting Day
I don’t know where to begin so I’ll just start from the beginning and talk about how this day was.
It first started off with the desire to hike with my gf. We both made it to the top and was able to take great pics and it was just fun in general hiking up the path that I knew decently well. The interesting part begins during the path down.
We decided to take a different path down and as we were going down we tried to avoid going in the woodsy area because we both had shorts on and the thorns were killing us along with the darkness beginning to set in. We decided to follow the swerving road that was connected to West Rock Mountain and it looked extremely unfamiliar. We kept walking further and further and everything seemed to look different.
I was beginning to get nervous just because I didn’t feel safe where I was at. We stopped and we decided to put SCSU into the gps to see where we are geographically. Apparently we were 1.2 miles away from campus and I didn’t think it was that far. Dude I was so fucking wrong.
We followed the gps and then we went through a neighborhood that reminded me of the Southend apartments in Stamford. Very small, fenced, close, back to back, and very active and very poor looking. There were a bunch of little kids playing and they looked like they were in middle school. I decided to continue walking with Angelina as we minded our own business. We saw them playing football with each other; I’m assuming they were all friends, family, or neighbors from the neighborhood.
One kid decided to walk towards us and say “hey I like your purple hair” to Angelina when in reality it was a bandana. We just kept walking and we then heard “Say thank you nigga.” I already knew what was gonna happen from here because all they are gonna do is instigate and antagonize us for no apparent reasons because we clearly looked like we don’t belong in the hood. The comments progressively became ruder and ruder as we walked. I shall list the few comments that we heard
- Nigga say thank you
- Chinese ass nigga
- Cracker (to Angelina)
- Skinny ass
- You look like you got sun burn you dark ass nigga
I ignored all of this because it doesn’t even anger me. I just feel so damn bad for these kid. I feel so bad for them just because they didn’t choose this kind of life. They were born into a community that is so underdeveloped and they have no control over it.
These kids are born into poverty with role models that may be parents that sell drugs to struggle and pay for cell phone bills or buy drugs with the money they don’t already have. Their role models also have used the N word constantly as we can see. Their role models or whoever raised them as you can see are antagonizers also. I don’t see what they get out of it. They most likely have never seen an asian person and a white person walking through the neighborhood before which is why we may look like gems to them and that is why they started approaching us.
I feel bad mainly because they could have a better life than the life they currently lead and will lead. Assuming is never safe but I don’t want to jump to conclusions that these kids will sell drugs, end up in jail, commit crimes, or even die.
These kids have such potential to be successful but have gotten their opportunities ruined because they think they’re suppose to follow a certain role that a person in their life has set for them. I can’t do anything for them but to feel sorrow but it makes me think a lot. I am going to be a social worker one of these days and that involves me working with a various amount of people including children in underdeveloped cities. I want to help them but are they willing to accept my help if ignorance is all they have in mind.
Other than that, it was a great day to begin with but a horrible way to end on. I also felt really creeped out with the people that drove by slowly too. Clearly we look like we don’t belong in the neighborhood which is probably why they looked at us like that. I never felt so unsafe before in such a city because I’m so use to walking around in Stamford on High Ridge with my friends. It isn’t like that up here in New Haven. This is reality.
I would like to also thank my parents for also giving me the opportunity to better ourselves by wanting me to do well in school. I feel like I never appreciate them at all whenever they say or remind me to do well. Not many families are like this and I truly feel ungrateful, especially today. I want to thank them for allowing me to grow up where I grew up, experience what I experienced, having an education, being loved, caring for me, and for accepting me. I’m sorry if I don’t tell you guys that I love you enough, because I wouldn’t know how you guys would truly feel if something horrific were to happen to me today.